whispering my thoughts..

10:29am, May 16, 1990

2009-05-13T23:21:00.000-07:00

Here is a gift I received from the davids (David Cook and David Archuleta..lol)!! meet David,aka. baby dav..hehe

Since May 11-Monday, my classmates already made a countdown to the "DaY"..

Everyday they would shower these words unto my face, "HappY BirThday!, (touched ako tuloy..)

wonder why did they do that? (Birthday ko bah araw2?)hehe.. Anyways, they reminded me that im growing old.

On the same day,19 years ago-- May 16, 1990 at 10:29 am, my mother had an early present. My existence has made a difference to their lives(to my family..=] ). I have walked a life with crooked roads; full of struggles, hardships, griefs, and sorrows (who doesn't? eh?) but above all I feel blessed to catch a glimpse of heaven because of my family and friends who always stick around through thick and thin..

Before I close the day, lemme share with you an update of my happenstance as of today:

5:00am -woke up

5:30am -went to a shrine in Monte Cueva "little cave" with the whole accountancy students

6:30am -attend a mass in Monte Cueva for it's my birthday, to thank God for His incessant blessings and offered prayers for support for those who are taking board exams.

8:00am -i'm walking home with my classmates

8:30am -my classmates surprised me about something i didn't expect. They made a video about me with dedications. "OUR MODERN CINDERELLA" oohh..

8:40am -high spirited! went to a restaurant, treat my friends... plus ice cream! that sure was fun!!

9:30am -went home and watched the video they made for the second time..

10am- 12noon -greetings received in bulk..got busy replying greetings on mail and text.

12noon - ate lunch

1:00pm -plurking, updating friendster account, facebook, hi5, tagged..

1:30pm -took a nap

4-up to now - nothing much happened.. responding some greetings, texting, watching boys over flowers, food trip, etc.. etcetera..

There wasn't a grand party, no lights, no ball gowns, nor a romeo who came.. = ( (like the love story song.. )

But, today I feel loved. My Friends and my family made my day special!! a total emotion-whirlwind, it knocks me off my feet...with mixed emotions that I couldn't fathom but I feel it.. I feel very human.. very ectstatic, i cried, i was overwhelmed and touched. It's too bad to end the day so soon, but i collected the exquisite moments and keep it in my heart.. *Thank you guys for sharing it with me*..

This place is a universe of silence.. lots of surprises that God brought this day and i’m so thankful for it..

Im officially 19, another turn of life... when im still younger I used to think that persons above 18 are fully grown woman.. but when i look myself on a mirror, Im still the joram, quoted by froilan " You're not growing older but getting better".. It's sweet to hear it from a dear friend of mine..

lookin' through the E Y E S

2009-05-10T23:42:00.000-07:00

hi!! i just feel to write something.. i need to spill this thing out of my system.. They have said that the eyes are the mirror of one's soul. So here is the purpose of this post--the compliments I get from the people that I considered very close to my heart.. I'm completely flattered about this:

She was rather short, with eyes that were eloquent and passionate at times and seemingly candid at others, rosy-cheeked, with an enchanting and inciting provocative smile that revealed a very beautiful soul and the air of a bubble gum girl; her entire self diffused a mysterious charm.. endangered angel indeed!!
------------by Arne, a friend of mine

I'm staring at a picture of a girl, as I look into her sweet and innocent face, her eyes are the most magnetic and tantalizing. It sucks me deeper and deeper..
As I journey through her eyes I stop in a moment in time.
She's perfect in every way, a sense that every part of her is beautiful; her body, smell, voice, touch and her stare is what I crave as I stare at her picture, in a picture I only could look. This girl has the power to stop a moment in time...
------------by franz, someone special..

How's that? I wonder how my eyes captured their attention?? tsk,,tsk,. i must be lucky then!!
Anyways, they have touched my heart in every way possible.(emotions in a whirlwind)..
They have pulled my heartstrings once again..
They are absolutely my real friends and I feel very special to them..hehe.. i guess..

“There is a road from the eye to heart that does not go through the intellect.”---G.K. Chesterton.
this quote really proves it all...
XD

Ora et Labora

2009-05-02T02:11:00.000-07:00

Today is the day after the international celebration of the Labor Day.
Anyway, my post is supposedly about yesterday and the damn internet connection was very low. There was a typhoon then. It was raining cats and dogs even now it is still wet. tsk.tsk.. I still have a birthday party to attend to.. Hmp! :(

Well, i wanna share the events that had occur for the past three days, that would be April 29,30 and May 1.

April 29 & 30---- Since I am taking summer classes, examination is a big issue and the crisis of the life of a student --MIDTERM EXAM made us shiver once more. Some of us are ready to exert the tedious effort of studying 'til dawn, while some of us just choose to study a bit and depend on luck. Studying is really one of the things that student tends to dislike, even I myself would admit it..hehehe.. Plus the misery of the sophisticated teachers and the way or the styles of their teaching doubled up the bitterness... ugh! However, this has been part and parcel of student life. The good news and partially a bad news is, I got 89/100 item of the Accounting 6a Exam. It's way better than to have a bad score. But I'm not satisfied 'coz I almost ace it if I'm more careful in writing my answers. I'm so clumsy and reckless, and careless!!! arrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

May 1----- I thought this day would be a holiday or rest day for all of us. But here in my school, we have an Accounting Quiz Bowl.. sounds great? not!!!!!! Gosh! It gave me a headache since I'm the Program Committee Chairman, i should make a program for that activity to make it more exciting and fun.. Luck shines upon me, the said activity was a thumbs-up! It went well and filled with fun! Some teachers came over too! There was a vocal solo ,as an intermission number in the quiz bowl. There should be two contestants for each year level representing the two competing teams the BALANCE SHEET and the INCOME STATEMENT. As can be expected, each accountancy student ellicited that spirit of competition. I'm so glad that my team crowns as the overall winner of this activity.. yea! ^-^
The said activity only consumed the whole morning and after that we went home for lunch and somehow took a nap. Though it was a short activity, for my part, it has been a fun-filled day with our own "esprit de corps"

Goethe once said, " It is not doing the thing we like to do, but liking the thing we have to do, that makes life blessed!
Indeed, such 3-days experience was not that grand but worth of lessons. It's also a leap of faith; with all that constant praying and asking for God's favor and wisdom makes things right that i wanted it to be. Yes, "ora et labora"!-- Pray and work is all we got to do for a successful life. Do everything what we could muster and lift it up all to Him for His glory and in His matchless name. Amen.

WhEn tHE SpaRks EnD

2009-04-24T09:48:00.000-07:00

When The Sparks End

Letting go..is the best way...
Love is never selfish as what they say,
All you can do is to open you heart.
Let him be free to look for another start.

Don't hold on for the happy moments in the past
Always remember, it can never last.
Just thanks him for being a part of you once,
Not easy but you'll have to take a chance.

Don't look back; it can hinder your sight,

Learn to accept that "reality bites".
Don't blame yourself, it can make you blue.
Remember, he also lost a LOVE that was pure and true.

It's never easy to let go.
Cry if you want but there's nothing you can do.
Tell him that you're willing to be mere friends again.
And leave the past behind, when his sparks end.

In a piece of yellowpad paper, I saw this poem in my old file case where i keep many significant things that I only understood; like souvenirs, remembrance, certificates, treasures, etc..and i unexpectedly found this one! :-) I don't know who created this poem, but what i remember from the stickiness of my thought is I copied this from the hand-out that my computer teacher gave, way back 3 years ago.. Good thing i keep it for it is another treasure to preserve..

The poem generally conveys the art of letting go..it's really hard to do it than saying, but that's the least thing we can do. Life must go on, besides time will heal everything. I swear!
I've been through this, i know where it leads and where it ends. I know it hurts to no longer be loved by the one who used to love you. I know it is hard to be dumped by the one who cares you like a precious gem and worship you like a princess.
Then suddenly like a gush of wind it's over. It's over before it ended.
It is difficult to accept and fathom the despicable fact.
The fact that nobody wants to get into and burst like a heated teapot.
But, it’s time to face up the cold hard facts.
It's time to start picking up the pieces of your life.
It's time to break free and stop hoping that "he" would come back and ask for your love again.
It's time to be happy and to love and be loved again from someone who don't leave you for good.
Why dwell and believe from someone's promises of affection
when you can find love in its splendor from another man?
We all deserve to be happy, to love and be loved again.
However, some of us want to shift into an easier way of accepting the truth to escape from the painful reality.
But as young lovers, the luxury of easiness isn't for us.
We have to endure the heavy loads of pain and bitterness because there we can learn from the hell of it.
So let this one go.. Let go..until his sparks end.
=]

just an ordinary summer..

2009-04-08T00:23:00.000-07:00

Here comes summer '09..

The same ol' ordinary summer,where the rays of the sun are steadily pointing at us,causing us to perspire and burn at such constant heat.. just an exaggeration..

i just wanna share the bittersweet days before the dreadful start of my summer class..

First, the birth of my own blog site.

This is my very first post on the list (on this site..hehe). I have some other blogs on friendster also. Actually, my dearest friend- AIMEE, introduced this blogger site to me and indeed, i'm hooked on it. yea, yea, yea. I've enjoyed reading her blogs and with the others too.. Then I finally decided to make my own blog site to formally share my thoughts, feelings,and sentiments--simply my journal from papers to online, where everybody can read and write some comments. It's pretty nice though.. =] and exciting!

Second, the undying major exam on managerial accounting.

Can you imagine we haven't yet taken our final exam on that subject?! Then our grades wouldn't be released because of that. One more thing, my 4 week vacation was undeniably interrupted by that. I have to study the whole big-thick-book because that's our coverage for the exam next week, April 14. ganda noh? tsk tsk tsk.

Third, financially down.. no allowance!!!!hehe.. meaning, i have to stay most of my time in the house. boring...

Fourth, next week marks the tiresome summer class.

My awful schedule is 8:00am- 11:40am Accounting 6, 6:50pm-8:40pm Accounting 12. We are required to take summer class. Looking at it makes me sick. However, out from the bad schedule there is still good in it, 6 hours vacant in the afternoon!!yea..i can have my nap.. good for me because i have to wake up early.

Fifth,the thrill of moving one step forward--ima fourth year student next school year!!

The turn of another new chapter of life. I somehow feel the pinch of anxiety. Another nerve-cracking situations where im going to be thrown again into a pit of despair after a tensionful state of three years of academic pressures.

Lastly, the sunny side of the coin, I've enjoyed every bit of my leisure time despite the bitter thought of the pending exam.hehe.. i'm happy going out with my friends..strolling along the seashore, reading with pleasure,

unlimited texting, biking around the small city of Maasin, going to school for some reasons like the enhancement activity of the 2nd year accountancy for their qualifying exam.. "ate" ako nun..im glad they've learned from us and we had helped them..

i had also fun to go swimming, to watch movies, to have quality time with my paramour, to watch the sunset, to sleep late and to wake up late,..whoohoo!!..XD not to mention the timeless surfing of the net till dawn,..haha

Summer is only starting!!

im still looking forward for more fun and excitements!! im also glad that i have summer class, it's good to have something to do than nothing. it's like letting the days passed and not making it worth living..

toodles..=]